State Of Disgrace

wasting time on the shuttle.
looking for the core in me.
repetition is futile.
but i believe in misery.
the last taste of human waste is raining down between
the vision through the window and the hard reality

so i said 'hey, try not to hesitate'.
because i can wait
for the state of disgrace.

leaning on myself and no one else
i left the babies in the cellar but they just don't help
so i'm just talking to the dark hoping they'll keep us all awake at night
but it isn't right.


so maybe once upon a never
i was part of a nasty scene
why don't you pull down on the lever.
i'm not afraid of the guillotine.
the last time i said goodbye i was choking in my sleep
now i see her eyes before i wake. it makes my insides bleed

so i said 'hey, try not to hesitate'.
because i can wait
for the state of disgrace.

screaming at myself and no one else
i found the bodies in the cellar but they just don't help
so i'm just digging in the dark hoping it keeps us all awake at night
but it isn't right.